Thursday, June 3, 2010

Update

Figured I would share a bit of what has been happening in the Winter's household. First of all, without irking any of my all natural ladies out there, I had to go on anti-depressants shortly after Cayd was born. For those of you who have never suffered from PPD, it is a seaky sneaky thing! I couldn't function. My poor children were probably petrified of me, not to mention my husband! Breathing was literally painful. I could not stop crying. My sweet friend Amy finally told me one day that she was very concerned and thought I should call the dr who IMMEDIATLY put me on something. I promise, withing 24 hours, I was a different person. I'm still on them and will be for awhile. I'm a much happier, gentle, kinder person. I'm able to deal with things the way I "should" be able to and things, like my OCD with cleaning, is also under control. I share this because I know God had something coming at us. :)
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A few weeks ago my husband quiet his job. ***DEEP BREATH*** Yeah. It had actually come down to a quit or be fired scenario. Buddy, honestly, did nothing to deserve this but it was a blessing in a very scary disguise. With his job he was on call 24/7. He could NEVER be w/out his phone and his company would call in the middle of the night, mid of church, middle of ANYTHING. It was a huge stress factor. Plus they could send him out of town at a moments notice for how ever long they determined. I think we were all a bit more stressed then we thought. They paid very well and so it was very much paid slavery. They had just pushed him to the limit. Of course through all this, I prayed desperatly. I wanted to support my husband. In a sense, he was begging me for "permission" to quit. Of course, I was so scared because, hello! Finances! And how was he ever going to find a job paying that sort of money around here. God very kindly revealed my gluttony though and reminded me of how much He loved us. When Buddy actually quit, he looked like a different person. He was so happy!!

We have enough $$ to last us until mid July or so. Its incredible how little one can live on under extreme circumstances. Buddy has been "working" at a sports academy called APEX that he actually had a hand in starting. Its really neat and he has felt God calling him to be there full time. Of course, seeing that its just starting out, its pretty much a "just bills paid" deal. Not that I'm complaining. AND he's getting ready to start something called Combat Cardio which has a very MMA feel to it. In other words...I'm happy living on NOTHING because my husband is doing what God is calling him to do. Its CRAZY but it works. I was worried about insurance but for now my kids are covered under Alabama AllKids.

We have been so blessed too! I'm surrounded by friends who know exactly what I'm going through. And the other day when I received our bill for our lawn care (which I had cancelled because we couldn't afford it), they had written a "no charge" for the last month and wished us luck. What a blessing. I'm just amazed at how much less cluttered life feels right now. I never realised how good it felt to be so dependent on God. I'm thrilled to see where God is leading our family. I love it here!

Thanks for listening to my rant!!!!!

5 comments:

Britani said...
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Britani said...

Thanks for sharing! I know nothing about PPD or supporting a family on little to no $, but I do know how hard it is to survive on little to no $. And how much easier it is to trust God to provide when times are hard. God has done some amazing things in my life this past year and I am truly learning to Faithfully Trust HIM!
Glad to here you are trusting him, and he is doing amazing things for you as well.

The Chad Beck's said...

Exactly what Brit said. It's so nice seeing God's helping hand in every situation when you live paycheck to paycheck.
On the down side of it, it's really hard and it feels really tiring after awhile of struggles. I hope God blesses him with a good enough paying job were it's more comfortable then barely making it.
Thank you for this post, I've been slightly struggling this week about this topic and needed yet another upside way of thinking!
BTW, I'm glad to hear your friend & dr. helped you out, that doesn't sound fun in the least! Glad to hear things are going well now!

Shea said...

Thanks Girls! I'm so thankful for being able to share this with you all! Its a blessing to know how to pray for each person and I know God uses FB and Blogs to accomplish that. Love your insights...and will continue to lift you both in prayer.

Lani said...

SO glad you didn't just keep struggling with the PPD! I've never dealt with it, but have friends who have and it can be a nightmare!
Trusting God with our finances was something I was never good at-years ago when my hubby decided to open his own business I would stress every month until we made enough to pay the bills. Now, after all these years and looking back- God provided for us EVERY TIME and we never, ever have gone without basic needs being covered. Let's just say... I no longer worry about it. :)
I will be praying for you and your family! I can see that God is doing something amazing in your life right now!

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I am a lover of Jesus Christ! I aim to make our home a sanctuary for my husband and 3 children. I know God has called me to be a wife and mother and each day, I thank Him for giving me the ability to stay home and be JUST that. I homeschool our daughter, Mattea using ABEKA K-3 and several wonderful websites. Although Aidan really enjoys going to Christian school, Mattea prefers to be home. Fine by me!!! I love being apart of the women's Bible studies through our church and strive to learn more about my Lord and grow in our precious relationship. I give God all the glory and have learned to praise Him no matter what the circumstance.