Have Your Way

Feels like i`ve been here forever,

Why can`t you just intervene?

Do you see the tears keep falling?

And i`m falling apart at the seams.

But you never said the road would be easy,

But you said that you would never leave.

And you never promised that this life wasn`t hard,

But you promised you`d take care of me.

So I`ll stop searching for the answers,

I`ll stop praying for an escape,

And I`ll trust you,God, with where i am,

And believe that you will have your way.

Just have your way.Just have your way.

When my friends and my family have left me,

And I feel so ashamed and so cold.

Remind me that you take broken things

And turn them into beautiful.

So I`ll stop searching for the answers,

I`ll stop praying for an escape,

And i`ll trust you, God, with where i am,

And believe that you`ll have your way.

Just have your way.

Just have your way.

Even if my dreams have died,

And even if i don`t survive,

I`ll still worship you with all my life.

My life.

And I`ll stop searching for the answers,

I`ll stop praying for an escape,

And i`ll trust you, God, with where i am,

And believe that you will have your way.

Just have your way.Just have your way.

I know you will.I won`t forget.

Whoa-ohYou love me.Have your way.

I could probably say this is applicable to my life at this very moment and in some ways, I suppose it is. Is it not reflective of where so many of us are on sometimes even a day to day basis? But no...not about me...for a friend.

My friend is dying of stomach cancer. There...I said it. It seems so harsh but the reality is that only God knows how much longer she will live. Kristi is 39, a wife of one, mother of 3, and a beloved child of the most High King. Long story short, we used to joke about her "stomach pains," blaming them on (and laughing about) gas pains and if she was a real woman she would know how to "fluff" and make them go away. A painfully few months ago, upon returning from a church plant in Zimbabwae, she became very bloated and after being admitted to the hospital, was drained of 7 liters of fluid from her stomach. It was cancer and even worse, the cancer cells were in the fluid which was freely floating around in her abdominal cavity. Fast forward to today, her husband posted that she is no longer able to withstand chemo at this point. Because her main source of nutrition is from IVs, chemo is out of the question. As soon as her pain can be controlled, they are sending her home.

Kristi's heart is the biggest I have ever known. She would literally give you the shirt off her back if you needed it. Probably even if you didn't need it and just liked it. No, really! Now, to see and hear her like this is one of the most painful things I have experienced and yet, how selfish am I? This darling woman is dying and yet I'm the one in need of comfort? Through it all, she has prayed not for her healing but for God's will in her life. When I spoke to her today, for the first time, I heard her weep, "Shea, I want to live!" Oh God~I can't even begin to understand.

This morning when I read about her most recent prognosis, I called my mom in tears, at 445 am her time, nonetheless...she's such a good Mommy, she just prayed with me. One of the things she prayed was that all of Satan's minions that would be causing Kristi pain would be cast from her and that those interceding on her behalf would stand in the gap, filling the broken places in the hedge surrounding Kristi. Later when I spoke to Kristi she said this morning, she woke up in such pain, that she believed it only to be demonic. She started to feel relief right when my mom was praying for her! I didn't even think to pray for her in this manner, and yet it was exactly what she needed, and God led my mom to pray that for her. I'm so humbled by Him!

I know Kristi wants to live. Her family wants her to live. However I know that they live wanting God's will ahead of their own. That I would learn from their steadfast faith. Please be in prayer for them. You can follow their blog http://hopeforkristi.typepad.com/.